Oh, you know...: When it Rains it Pours.

Yesterday was my 21^st birthday. It rained. As long as I can remember it has always rained on my birthday. In fact, every time I need to make my long distance drives, such as from Des Moines to home or home to Des Moines, it always rains. Basically, rain follows me wherever I go. My mom said, and now this is getting a bit religious and mythological, that I must have the rain God looking over me.

Well, last Friday it poured. I got a phone call from Greg in the morning after he has returned from the ER. He has cancer. At first, based off the first tests results they thought he had either lymphoma or pancreatic cancer, but now it has been mostly confirmed that it is in fact leukemia. This is treatable which is wonderful, but there is still that fear that something can go wrong. Talking to him on the phone, as it is a joyful part of my day, is also so saddening because I can hear the terror in his voice and the pain of everything going wrong with him in his sighs. I feel so helpless; Not only for him, but for myself too. I’ve been going through a mix of emotions and I don’t exactly know how to handle them. So far, I’ve gone through denial and anger and right now I’m working on being positive. This is his life. I need to be there for him, so I will have hope, faith, and believe that everything will be okay. He waited to tell our friends at Drake the news until yesterday, which caused a few of our friends to call me and see how I was doing with the news and my birthday. I thought it was rather considerate of them to check up on me too. It’s all come as a shock and so abrupt, that everything done is being done at the moment. I have to go to Des Moines next Tuesday for my scholarship meeting, and then after I return I will go to Denver shortly after to be with Greg. I will probably only stay a couple of weeks, but we’ll see after how everything is after I get there. So far it seems like Greg is living life as normal by going to the movies, hanging out with friends, and playing video games, but then there’s a whole new aspect of his life now: he has appointments almost everyday to have some sort of test taken to help diagnose him properly, he’ll start treatment soon, and his beautiful, long hair will be cut very shortly.

My birthday was made special with my friends and family. My best friend Julie came over to take my mind off thinking about all this and we went to the movies to see Bug. I suggest not seeing it, unless you like to come out of the movies totally confused and speechless about what just happened. Then, later in the night I went out for ice cream with my family. We're going to dinner later during the weekend. I had a good time and it was just nice! I'm so grateful for having everyone around me. Thank you!

I'll be going out with my sister this weekend and then Corie and Cammeo when I go to Des Moines, so the real celebration will be done then! I miss my girls, so I'm really excited to see them.

Until later, please be healthy. Good night!