Spring Break

It's Friday...the last day of my Spring break! So sad. I went home to see my family and for the most part it was okay. Since my dad's death in November, the last couple of months have brought on three more deaths in the family. Most of which are with the in-laws so I didn't know anyone that well, but seriously, I feel like people are dying left and right, and I really do not like it.

I seem to go through phases when I'm completely okay, and just when I think I'm okay, I'm not. I often have a week where I don't sleep. Other times I gain weight, and then lose it, I lack motivation to get things done, but so far being home I only had one night where I could not sleep. That's a good thing. Being home has been nice, but it bothers me when my mom brings up old memories of my dad. I just can't seem to talk about it much with my family. I talk about it with my friends, but I don't know what it is about my family that I completely shut down. Greg still thinks I need to see a shrink. Everyone tells me the first two years are the worst. If it's still bad after that, then I'll go. Until then, this I believe is pretty normal.

I have more trouble sleeping when I have work. People at work asked me if I like my job! I love my job, but there must be something that is bringing about anxiety in me when I think about work. I'd love to figure that out too.

The week before I came home it rained a lot in Iowa, which then I noticed I had a puddle of water on my dashboard and my steering wheel was wet. Greg said maybe it was condensation...I didn't believe him b/c puddles don't happen with condensation. Then, another night I was driving and the water started to drip on me! The top of my windshield was leaking! I took it to Toyota to get it checked out and they said I just needed to get it resealed. Long story short, I ended up having to get a new windshield because evidently the previous owner installed a cheap window incorrectly and never sealed the top of the windshield! It took four years for it to show signs, but it caused rust! NO ME GUSTA! Everything should be okay now. I'm hoping the rust won't damage my car too much. While talking on the phone with the owner of the shop we figured out I knew his mother-in-law from Drake so he gave me a discount! YaY! Still a much pricer endeavor than I was prepared for.

As for new news, I have a "pen friend" from Italy! Cammeo set us up b/c he wants to work on his English and I love learning about people. I'm really excited! We've exchanged a few messages so far and its kind of therapeutic. I can talk to him about things and he doesn't even know me! It's great. There's no judgment about it. It's all really a learning experience with two complete strangers. He's a bit older than me, but everything has gone smoothly thus far.

I need to work on portfolio as it is due in the next two weeks! A LOT of work to do. Then, I need to wrap some gifts for Perla and go see her tonight before I go back to Des Moines tomorrow. I'm not ready to go back. I would love to have a month off. Ahhh, that would be great. My mom has to go to a funeral so I'm taking my brother with me. It should be a good time!

Going to try to be productive!