Time is Our Worst Enemy

My stomach is churning. I've been waiting all break to make this phone call-wanted all the holidays to be gone and out of the way so I didn't have to deal with people being away from the office on vacation-and now I made the phone call TWICE and still didn't get a chance to talk to the wedding coordinator at our wedding venue.

My wedding is postponed. There are many factors contributing to this: 1) The Indian culture says that when there is a death in the family you can not have any celebrations for one year after the death. 2) Honestly, we just don't have the money to get this wedding going anymore 3) my dad was doing ALL the planning and I know that my mom will not take on the task and considering the only break I have left from school is Spring break, I can not make this wedding go up by myself.

I need to see if the coordinator will either let us have the same deal but for 2011....but at the same time, it might be moved to Denver since Greg's parents are more willing to help at this moment than my mom is. In that case, we need to see if we can find a better deal there AND see if I can get my dad's deposit back. I feel really sad about this whole thing. I feel like my dad put in so much time and effort to make this happen at this location and now there's a chance we won't even have it there. It's like all that work is just washed away-just like that and it means nothing. I don't think anyone realizes how much work went into just getting this place for the deal that we did. Yes, its a little expensive but at the same time it's really worth it.
No one wanted to help when my dad and I were working on this. Instead, everyone complained on where it was and how much it was costing and why it was the way it was...and now, people think that we can just start from square one and make it all happen again.

It also makes me sad that there's a chance I won't get the wedding I want. I have a picture of what it should look like in my head, but will it happen like that? Should it still happen like that? Will I enjoy it even after a year? My mom wants Greg and I to get a court wedding this upcoming July since we had planned on getting our own place this summer and still plan to stick to that plan. She said, "that way its okay for you two to live together." SERIOUSLY? NO ONE CARES!!! I feel like if I have a court wedding there's a huge chance that the ceremonial wedding won't happen because then my mom will say that we don't really need it and we can save our money (which is true)...but I feel that would be another thing I let go of just b/c I became a pushover and did what was easy for everyone else.

Now, I'm waiting for this damn phone call. Hope that we don't get stripped of anymore cash and hopefully she'll be understanding of entire situation.

2010 is not as exciting as it should have been. I hope things get better.